My dream is to open my own cupcake shop/bakery. Since I was a little girl, I wanted to teach. When researching the two I decided that teaching would have to support me until I could afford to open my shop. With one year left of school, I am now rethinking my decision.
I have become increasing aggravated with my school and schooling to the point where I am less motivated to become a teacher. I am dreading starting in the fall, which should be really exciting; I am supposed to start student teaching this fall. However, I have not received my placement and will be weeks behind everyone else going out into the field. Yet another severe let down from my college. My classes this summer are yet another set of classes that repeat the same stuff and contain things that I will never use. It is also another summer where I am paying $100 an hour to have my teacher run off on tangents unrelated to the topic flowing into 45+ minutes of hypothetical situation story time. On top of all of this, me and my husband have moved in with his parents to save money for a house. This is very difficult being that I cannot work while student teaching, as that is a full time job.
With all of this, I have been temped to find a full time job and start working on my cupcake business. Today, instead of working on pointless irrelevant homework, I have been researching small business regulations in my area. I feel so excited and motivated. I haven't had this much motivation since I moved away for college. Everyone is telling me to stick with the last year so I at least have a four year degree and something to fall back on if my business fails. I do understand the logic behind this, however I am having a very hard time finding the focus to continue on at the level of performance I expect of myself.
Am I just getting nervous for starting a career? Am I supposed to teach? Am I supposed to bake? Am I just frustrated with my schools lack of communication and organization leading to chaotic irrelevant repeated teaching methods? Should I continue with my original plan? After 4 years and huge life changes, is it time for a revaluation and new plan? This is the perfect time for life's magic-eight-ball, anybody have one I could borrow?
